Every day is a new adventure. Some days, I’m frozen not being able to leave my bed, much less my house. I feel like an empty shell, just staring into space, while occasionally drifting off. I think my brain just goes into overdrive from thinking about everything that has to be done for the day. While other days, I can jump right out and face the world, without even thinking about it.
I’m also a night owl mostly, which adds more havoc to the mix. As the day gets later, I’m a multi-tasking crazy girl just trying to get it all done. This eventually conflicts with my fiance’ and daughter’s sleep schedules, so I force myself to go to sleep before I really am ready to.
Either way, I absolutely hate all the wasted time. I need to get my head together a bit more, so I can work on that better. Otherwise, I’m just stuck in this never-ending viscous cycle.
I’m pretty sure my biggest motivation overall is my youngest daughter, Scarlet. If it weren’t for her, I probably would sleep most of the day away and do next to nothing. Everything I do, I do for her. She has several disabilities, yet no matter what she has been through, she is always full of laughter and love. My babies are my world, no matter what age they are. They know that I am always Mama Bear and do anything I can for them. My eldest Haley is 19 and doesn’t quite need me so much. She’s moved to another country. This makes me sad and proud all at once. I miss her dearly.
My fiance’ is also a motivation, but in a different way. He reminds me often about how many times my ways have failed lol. It can be frustrating sometimes, but he means well. I do get side-tracked entirely too easily. Literally, I will see a puppy and completely get off track. So, yea I see his frustration as well. A lot of times, I make my own race to accomplish a certain set of tasks to prove to him that I can do it. Which in turn helps keep me focused.
What is your biggest motivation?